Monday, January 04, 2010

Jan 4 2010

That's my first time to write or type 2010. It often seems that 2009 was this fresh and new no more than a month ago. It goes WAY too fast!

I'm starting the new year, and decade with a cold and a new computer. I'm also starting with a new commitment to blogging. I really, REALLY hope is sticks.

This past year, I've felt that every time I sat down to try and write, I was whining. There were more than a few entries that were written then deleted on that premise. I can't guarantee an absence of whining, but the sand is starting to shift here and I think I'm going to need the outlet.

I'm not going to get into a lot of backstory and detail today, but I think this year may hold in it another move. The situation is in it's infancy but the signs are impossible to ignore. Another year of very tough choices, of working to accept what cannot be changed, and trying to find the tranquility to just live with what life throws at us.

All this is so new...too new to really even begin to talk about. Aaron and I have had a handful of conversations. But I feel like I'm sitting on a time bomb. My head's full of questions and concerns, my heart is unsettled and I know I'll need feedback and support from somewhere. I hope that place is here.

2010....new year, new decade....another redefinition of life.

9 comments:

Cynthia said...

We're definitely rolling with the changes. Let's see what 2010 holds.

Lisa :-] said...

Another move? Ugh. Well, though the actual reality of moving sucks, you at least won't be dealing with leaving a home that was so much a part of you as Allentown. Maybe you should put a bunch of stuff in storage just in case this relocation proves to be a short-lived one, too.

I'll keep you in my thoughts...

Cindy said...

Oh...I hope that the next move is not taking you to the west coast. That thought saddens me. Keep blogging. I'll be here. I have an entry 1/2 done, almost ready to post. Hope you make your fun trip tomorrow! xoxo

Kate said...

Wherever you go, I am always a phone call away. I am thinking of you and loving you.

alphawoman said...

Been a long strange journey but it seems we are (most of us) still standing and here for each other. happy New Year.

marigolds2 said...

Well, we can't have lunch in cyberspace, but we CAN be a comfort and support amongst ourselves. You know I'm here, you know how hard this move has been for me, my last email was a total whine - so know you can whine or snivel when you need to, or let out anything else that's in there. And I hope you will.

kath said...

Welcome back! I've missed you!
Glad you're OK, but I'm sorry to hear there might be more upheaval for you and your family. Keep us posted. We're all sending good thoughts your way!

Martha@Menagerie said...

Well, well, well - I see you've been blogging here too! Yippee! Kat is back! :-)
So glad you are feeling better and good luck to Joel with the food class, that just cracked me up!

Barbara said...

So happy to see you writing again. I have been learning that with every change there is a new beginning. I hope that your new beginnings will bring you peace and happiness for the future.

..for the record I'd rather read whining post than none at all...

Peace!